Writing for a prompt geared for an essay question in a college application, I was forced to really sit down and think about my own personal journey with the Lord and what that meant to me. I decided to share it with you all. There are a few personal details included.
I consider my relationship with Jesus Christ to be very special and significant. Ever since I was very little, I have fully believed in his existence and his grand power. I was raised in the Christian faith and regularly went to a little Baptist church with my family. Even though I was very young, I was saved at about 8 years old after my father explained to me the process of salvation and talked to me about everything from heaven to hell. I firmly believed in what Jesus Christ came to this earth to do for us and I was able to understand the significant price at which it all came. I remember being in awe and also having a bit of fear because I did not want to go to hell, but I truly felt God’s love through what he sacrificed for me individually. I did cry a lot and it was a very emotional moment. I was later baptized. However, as much as I was exposed to God’s teachings, our home was not particularly a Christian one, especially as my parents began to develop issues which eventually turned into regular fights and exposed me to a highly aggressive, negative environment. I have gone through many trials and hardships since then, through the two separations my parents had and continuing when and after they eventually got divorced. That hit me hard because I didn’t really understand completely what divorce was at the time; I had only heard the word and knew what it meant. I never imagined that my parents would get one and that they wouldn’t stay together forever. I am mentioning this point in my life because I feel that it is quite a significant one that occurred within my spiritual life and relationship with Christ. I am not sure that I can say that I turned towards Him more during this time, but I definitely remember praying diligently about it. It was always extremely heartfelt and at first my prayers were constant pleads that my parents would stop fighting and being angry and get back together so that we could all be happy again. At that time, I didn’t realize that while I was experiencing what I truly felt to be a very happy childhood, I was oblivious to what was going on in the background and that perhaps my parents had no real happiness, despite it all. As time went on and my parents avoided each other as much as possible, I eventually lost the desire to see them get back together. I grew up and learned a lot and came to many realizations. Through it all, my personal relationship with Christ changed as I changed, but I always continued to find real comfort in Him. This is exactly why I consider my bond with him as an extremely special one, because of the fact that I am so grateful for his unconditional love and the price he paid for my sins. I have done many horrible things and acted in terrible ways, as I have dealt with my own issues that have developed over the years. But, I have always continued to find extreme comfort in Him, especially at my very lowest points. It has always been so easy to talk to him. He has always been there. We as Christians all know that, but it really takes a difficult experience in which one turns away to really understand this concept. He is always there for us. Not only for every single human being on the face of this planet, but for me, individually. I value that immensely. I love that I can talk to him whenever I want and about whatever is on my mind. I have found myself walking through the halls at school, at my locker, or sitting in class, just talking to him, whether it be something random that happened or a quick prayer to help me get through my test. It always makes me laugh because it truly brings me such delight to know that he is listening. I can always feel him listening and I imagine him laughing with me. On top of this I have been so wonderfully fortunate to attend such a safe and morally-bound high school. It isn’t particularly a Christian institution, nor is it perfect, but not even a Christian school is perfect. Only God is. Our school has been lucky to harbor a lot of Christian influence which I continuously see as a great blessing. I have made a few amazing friends which I am proud to also call my brothers and sisters in Christ. They have been my support system and spiritual companions throughout my best and worst times. I will even say that they have helped me strengthen my relationship with the Lord and for that, I am extremely grateful. Even their existence in my life is because of Him as well! I am just very lucky to have the Lord Jesus Christ as my God and Savior and I am truly excited to grow my relationship with him as I begin a new and exciting chapter in my life. I know he will always guide me, however stressed I may become.